Coming home

Keith and I went to church tonight after our day of adventures. We ended up going to the church I grew up attending.


It felt like coming home. There have been quite a few changes since I last attended, some big, some small. All of the pastors that were there in my childhood have either retired or moved onto new congregations. The new pastor was a delight! His sermon was engaging and personable with the right amount of humor. He decried the Orlando massacre and urged for the Church to beware of the evil within its ranks that uses our religion as a weapon. His message touched my heart and I was glad that my church was still the loving, accepting place that it was in my youth.

Tonight’s service also included a healing service, where we prayed for those hurting and sick. Members of the congregation could come up and have the pastor lay hands on them and anoint them with oil. Keith went forward during this part. I think he found some comfort in it as he has been dealing with some heavy losses. Communion was taken, as well. This was the first communion I’ve had in at least 5 years. As I knelt at the altar rail with my empty wine cup, a sense of peace fell over me. I don’t know what clicked but I’m happy it did.

I can’t wait to go back next week.

A Journey of Faith

I’ve been thinking about faith often over the past couple of months. I was raised and confirmed Lutheran and was extremely active in my church’s youth group. I went to Mexico and built houses and taught Bible School. I went to uncountable youth conferences which were usually at the beach. There were trips to amusement parks, campgrounds and concerts. Most of my best childhood memories are from youth group. Some of the closest friends that I have are from my youth group days.

But as I’ve gotten older, I’ve become more and more disinterested in church. It’s not even because I question my belief in God. It’s more like I just can’t be bothered to care. Every now and then, something will come along and spark that fierce joy I used to have in my faith. Most recently it has been Nadia Bolz-Weber. I burn with passion and then, poof. It fizzles out. I miss it. I miss having a church family like I did as a kid.

I’ve been to a few different churches in the past decade or so, desperately searching for that place that feels like home. Some have been abysmal. A few have been almost right. ¬†One was a favored contender, where I was even re-baptized as an adult. I tried participating in various Bible study groups. Something was just off.

Right now, reading the Bible at home by myself seems to be the best. This started mainly because my ex-husband refused to go to church with me. Now it’s become a fallback which just barely fulfills my desire for faith and grace. I’m curious to see how how my journey is going to go now that I am in a relationship with someone who doesn’t adamantly turn away from church.

A journey of a thousand miles begins with one step. – Lao Tzu

On last week’s episode

So real life got in the way again, but here’s a fast run-down of what’s happened in the life of Deidre:

My divorce was finalized.

I met Tom Hiddleston and Chris Evans and didn’t die.

Barb and I did the Ultimate Captain America Marathon for Civil War.

I got a new boyfriend and he came with an amazing 8 year old daughter.

I paid off BooCruise2K16.

I got tickets to see GOT7 in Chicago, only to have to sell them because work screwed me over with time off.

I came out as bisexual.

Yeah, a lot has gone down. I’m going to be dedicating more time to blogging now that my life has calmed down a little bit so look forward to it!

4 months to live?

As I’m sure EVERYONE knows by now, Wizard World Philadelphia is having a ridiculously Marvel-filled line up in June.


Yeah. That’s happening. It’s real.

I’m Hiddles-trash. I’m not going to deny it. I utterly adore him and when I found out he was appearing, I almost lost it.

I found out about this line-up before it was officially announced. An online magazine for the Philadelphia area had an article about it the morning of the announcement. I waited patiently for the guests to be added to the website so I could act quickly and snag my badge.

Shortly past noon, all of the Captain America stars go live with their various VIP packages. A little bit later, Chris Hemsworth goes live. At this point, I am starting to panic. Did that article lie? WHERE IS TOM!? Truthfully, I was getting a little angry.


At Barb’s suggestion, I emailed the author of the article a nice professional note, asking if he happened to have any more information regarding Tom’s appearance. I honestly didn’t expect any results.

I was extremely surprised when he responded within a few minutes! I explained that I was a really big fan but concerned since all of the other Marvel guests he had written about were on the website but not Tom. He promised to make a few calls and get back to me. About 15 minutes later, he replied to let me know that Tom WAS confirmed and should be on the Wizard World website by 4 PM EST. VICTORY WAS MINE!


As I waited for the VIP packages to go on sale, Barb and I worked on getting our hotel situation sorted out. At one point, we had 3 different rooms booked as we gathered final counts on who was planning on attending and rooming with us. We ended up with a suite at the Home2 Suites, right across from the convention center! There will be 6 or 7 of us total, including some friends from England like Katy and Britt!

With the hotel sorted out, I began to click around the website. I stumbled across links for two VIP packages that had Tom included but were password protected. I kept refreshing the Ticket Leap page to see if he had been added there since it usually went there before the Wizard World page itself.

Finally, FINALLY at 2:08 PM on Tuesday, March 1st I, Deidre Renee, purchased the greatest thing I’ve ever dropped money on. I was the proud recipient of a Tom Hiddleston VIP badge.



There was some sobbing mixed with some maniacal cackling as the purchase was completed. After I came down from the adrenaline rush, I discovered that individual photo ops or autographs were not going to be available to those without the VIP badge and congratulated myself on a smart decision not to wait until my bonus in April to buy my badge.

My choice not to hesitate in purchasing a badge became even clearer yesterday morning when Tom HIddleston VIP badges sold out. Less than 24 hours and many a fangirl’s heart has now been broken.

I’m honestly not sure if I will survive the encounter with Tom. I’m usually on the chill side when it comes to meeting celebrities but this is TOM. TOM HIDDLESTON.


If I die, Barb, you can have my stuff.


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